An emotional week of mayham

What an emotional week it has been for me. I don't know why so much happened in one week. It started out over the weekend when my ex-husband and I finally came to a new agreement. Because of his new marriage and the fact that she has four kids, my child support payment have been few and in between, which means cutting back for us. The biggest thing that my ex and I fight about is them not wanting to go over there and him freaking out about it making the kids feel bad. But it is like a crazy house over there and sometimes they just want to stay home. Granted there are days that they want to go over there when it is not suppose to be his day. He was just so set on this "stipulation agreement" stated in our divorce decree. I myself like the fact that we live so close(yes I actually do) because the kids can just go back and forth as they please. So anyway, I proposed to him that I will no longer expect child support as long as he does not expect me to go off the visitation agreement stated in our decree. Without hesitation he said "OK thats awesome!" I was like...oh my hell it is all about money for him. But inside I was jumping for joy not having to worry about splitting holidays and spending a month away from them in the summer. This also meant that Dan and I had to figure out a new monthly budget with me not working and trying to finish school. This stirred up some emotions because we have kept things so seperate for so long, he doesn't really get what it takes to raise kids. So over the budget we go and finally decide if we are doing this marriage thing we have to combine accounts. Then onto the marriage subject we go. All this time in my heart I think I was set on getting married in Hawaii. But men do not get our subtle hints women. Unless we come right out and say what we mean...they will not get it. Dan has planned for us to go to Mexico and get married because he will already be down there for his bachelor party. So convenient. Thats men for you though right? So I am trying to let it go and think of the big picture and get some names of some resorts and beached down there so we can save some money on the wedding. I also am going to suggest dince I really don't want a bachloerette party that my sisters and I get a day at the spa before I fly down to meet him after his night of partying with the guys. So then thursday night Hannah shows me these strange rashes on her arms that I have never seen before. I usually know exactly what my kids have when they are sick but I didn't know what these were. So I send her to bed saying we will see if they go away in the morning. They were gone in the morning so I send her off to school and I am off for the day as well. I am sitting in my last class, the one that the teacher does not like cell phones on or texting, and my phone is vibrating like crazy in my back pack. So I finally take it out and look at it. Two calls from school, one from Amanda, and one from my mom as well as a text from her saying she is taking Hannah home. So I leave class and call my mom. She tells me that Hannah is sick and was really disoriented with a bad headache. So I call the doctor and they tell me to come in right away. I was clear up on campus and I still had to go get Chole. So I am running all over the place driving really fast on the freeway wondering why all these cars are drivning so slow. I finally get her and take her to the doctor. They are testing her for everything. And finally because of the symptoms of her headache and sensitivity to the light they check for neck and back stiffness. No stiffness. The doctor tells me to watch for signs of meningitis. WHAT!! I was freaking out not wanting to take her home. But I didn't think having a spinal tap without the major symptom of it was plausable either. SO I take her home, stick her in the bath and give her some ibruprofin which seemed to help. I was checking her neck every ten minutes though. I also got on facebook and was asking my child hood friend who is now a doctor what her oppinion was(thanks Jen). Well this morning she seemed to be feeling a little better. And just in time because its her birthday. But the fact that her presents are on the table and she is still in bed concerncs me still. She will be staying in bed on her birthday. And hopefully everything eles gets better on its own. I hopefully next week will be normal.